I’m missing, missing him so bad…
Wednesday, February 28, 2007Our last family outing with Jayson. November 1, 2005. Somewhere in San Fabian, Pangasinan.
Somehow, it still just doesn't feel real… Every time I visit Baguio, I still hope that he would be there waiting for me to get off the bus. I still sleep in his bed and I still anticipate his annoying way of announcing that I'm messing up the room again with my ever unorganized stuff. The house just seem so quiet… I wish one day I would turn around and he would be right there, grinning, laughing, telling me that it was one huge joke…and my fist would be ready to punch his face and he would just laugh harder…
The Sweet Escape
I'm happy because….
- I can finally do things my way. I can work on as much projects as I would like to and get the right pay for my hard work. I don't have to waste time in someone else's office anymore.
- I can run everyday if I'm feeling like it. I got total control of my time.
- I can finally have time to paint, write, or even find a night job as a waitress or bartender…Hehe!
- I'm being straightened out.
- I've proven that there really are people whom I know would stick with me no matter what.
- I'm traveling. I'm dancing. I'm running. I'm climbing.
- My little sister is getting bigger and smarter.
- I finally know exactly what I want.
- Me and my mom are getting along better now.
- I'm dreaming. My heart flutters with just a mere thought of him. Finally, I want to stay…
Strawberries and Reese’s Peanutbutter Cups… I want more!
Monday, February 26, 2007It's Monday and I got total post-Baguio-vacation syndrome. I'm feeling really lazee… probably because it wasn't the usual sleep-all-day-in Baguio trip. There was the Panagbenga that we have to watch live in the street and so we couldn't afford to sleep in. But it was fun, nice to get away from Manila heat for a weekend. Fortunately, it was raining when we got back here… Had a really good sleep (*wink*)…
I wish I could just stay in bed the whole day with the strawberries I successfully brought home from Baguio. Only a few pieces got badly bruised during the trip. Wish I had more though…about 4 kilos? That should last for a week.
I better get myself a table. My back needs mercy and I'm expecting a week of 12+ hours/day work. And working in my room, sitting on my bed will definitely make me lazy, hehe!
I think I'm free from the sisig curse. I'm gonna see when I run tonight. We're doing 10k on the KOTR run.
Back to Civilization!
Monday, February 19, 2007I finally got a landline! My house is now officially livable!…uh, well, I got no TV right now but the cable is just there waiting to be plugged. Gone are the days when I have nothing. No TV and cable, no fridge, no internet connection, just a bunch of roaches and a couple of rats disturbing the silence in our old 4-bedroom dusty house…
This phone better generate more money. Hehe!
Random Thoughts Part II
Tuesday, February 13, 2007Simply driven. It's never too early to start on your own. When you know there's a lot more in you, go ahead and make the best of it. There are talents and desire that are too intense to contain in an employer's place.
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There will always be heartaches, disappointments, failures. And each might be worse than before. But for sure they happen so we could truly appreciate the better things we really deserve. When you thought you could never hear your heart sweetly whisper someone's name, unexpectedly you would stumble upon someone you never thought would make your heart joyfully shout his/her name.
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Challenges never leave me and I do seek for them. I torture myself with endless thinking, worrying, whining and rewarding myself with mere pleasure from accomplishing the goals I set for myself. And for the briefest moment I would feel triumph, followed by boredom, then a burning desire to do more of what I had already done. Well, this is my playground. I create my own game with my own rules, enjoy it and loathe it. And in my playground, I will leave a mark, and I will be remembered…
