STRUGGLES, MEMORIES, WISHES…
Wednesday, August 9, 2006
Soon it will be three months since the heart has been buried, and since then the soul never stopped weeping, the mind became too afraid to see the light. Together they were in an endless vigil, never even thought about the end of it. For quite some time the soul would go into a short journey, in desperate need for an option, yet still bringing the baggage from the recent past. And eventually, he would go back to where it all started, go on with the vigil while the mind slept in disturbing silence, in hope for memories to fade. But restlessly he dreamt of images from the heart and chose never to sleep again…
DREAM:
On a Friday night after months of inconsistent depression, unwillingness to get up for work and numerous sleepless nights, I quickly turned my computer off at exactly 6:00 pm and headed to the elevator. It had been raining hard since yesterday and I had some new DVDs for the weekend. Typical Friday night it would definitely be, a movie with myself and a pint of chocolate ice cream and two frozen fudgee barrs.
I was briskly walking along the Dela Rosa walkway, trying to beat my regular 7-minute walk from Enterprise Centre to Landmark Pasig-FX terminal. I hate it when it rains so hard with the wind blowing to my direction. I really need to replace my old Vans shoes because I could already feel the water through my socks.
Three minutes and I was in front of Powerbooks Greenbelt, as usual bustling with employees on their way home. I manuevered my way into the crowd and when I got past Landmark's entrance, the way started to clear up. 4 minutes, 58 seconds. I know I can beat my own record, maybe a 5.5.
So I sprinted with my backpack jumping behind me. Few steps before reaching the stairs down to the parking lot when suddenly my viewing angle changed. I saw things from worm's eyeview but it didn't last long. I gathered all my strength to get up, ignoring the hands that were trying to reach out for me. I knew I should never wear these shoes when raining! The soles were smooth from over usage.
