Sick…

This isn't exactly a good composition but I'm sick when I did this!

Anyways, I wasn't able to go to work (again! 2 consecutive days since yesterday.) For some reason, I always have trouble falling asleep at night and when I wake up in the morning, I feel like all the energy have been sucked out of me. I don't know if it's because I dread going to bed because the next thing that I would do is to wake up and get ready for work, waste another 8 hours doing nothing really productive and challenging with earphones permanently glued to either side of my head, drowning myself with the same playlist.

The sun's finally out but the weather remains quite cool which is really ideal for running. But here I am… stuck in the house with numb limbs, eyes half-shut, tummy in revolt, head feeling like being unmercifully pounded, mind going crazy with all thoughts of him…

Yesterday, I tried getting some sleep before running at 5pm, hoping for the throbbing headache to go away. Few minutes before 5, I was feeling quite ok. After a kilometer, my tummy was already dragging me to the bathroom. I had nothing to throw up but a few spoonfuls of pistachio ice cream (the egg sandwich I had for breakfast and lunch had been definitely digested 5 hours ago.) It was so disappointing! I haven't run in a track since last Saturday and the Red Cross run is already next Sunday. I walked the second kilometer and tried running slow on the next two. That was the worst feeling… I didn't want to push myself too hard or I might not be able to run good when I need to.

I think I was dehydrated (cuz I rarely drink water when I'm at work,) hungry (had two egg sandwiches for breakfast and lunch and hadn't eaten much for the past few days cuz I didn't have the appetite,) and depressed (a monthly recurrence which I'm still trying to work on.)

As much as I would like to go for a run today, I might as well stay here and hope to be better by the end of the day. Oh, it's Salsa night tomorrow! Yeehee! Now, that's something to look forward to…