I’d rather eat…

I can't sleep, as usual. Everyday, I try to stay awake at work and tell myself that I'm just gonna have a quick dinner, rest for a while when I get home then off to bed at 9. But I always find myself doing something and before I know it, it's almost 11pm…Like now.

Anyways, nobody's leaving any comments in my Xanga blog 'cuz only members can do (which sucks.) So sometimes, I resort to reading featured blogs' comments instead.

I still don't understand why these white girls are obsessing about being stick thin. I'm not being a hypocrite here 'cuz I won't deny that I'm trying to lose weight. Well, that's because I was technically fat and I think I still am. 5 months ago, my body fat percentage was taken and it was 27.4%. Ideal body fat for a woman my age and height should be around 18-25%. So I have every reason to work out to burn fats and build more body mass. But that doesn't mean I have to take less than 200 calories a day (Kellog's for breakfast and none for the rest of the day) and still do 500 crunches and leg raises.

I used to love Lindsay Lohan during her Freaky Friday, Mean Girls and Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen years. I think she was hot and never thought she was fat at all. I'd kill for a figure like hers. But look at her now, and Nicole, they look so gross! I know this is mean to say, but they look like white Ethiopians. There are people who literally starve to death because they simply have nothing, but these white people who got the money just choose to hate food.

And comments given to these anorexic girls were usually of encouragement and gratefulness (for what?! for having someone who would die with you eventually?) I don't know who started the mentality that skinny is beautiful… I simply hate him/her.

I'm not bitter because I know I'll never be that skinny and I never want to. I can't say that I'm contented with how I look but I know what I want. I want to BE healthy, to look and feel healthy. I want to be fit enough to run a full marathon and confident enough to strut in a cute bikini sans annoying flabs. I don't want to be a live skeletal model for 3rd graders!

I love food, I love eating and I love exercising. And that's should be life!